Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I Would Do Anything~

So, being a parent sometimes is  so hard.  I think we all know that.  The way I love my kids is crazy and almost obsessive.  I would do anything to  help them.  I mean anything.  I am sitting here on hold with the hospital trying to figure out what is the next treatment or test to do for Zach.  The thing is, is that I am his mom and I should be able to help him.  I don't want him to go to Kindergarten or first grade and get made fun of  because he can't run and jump.  I don't want him to get discouraged and be down on himself.  He is such a vivacious, smart little boy.  He is  happy and so sweet.  He is strong spirited and not easily discouraged.  I want him to always have self confidence.  The frustrating thing is, that there are no answers.  We go to doctors and have tests and then go to more doctors.   I love him so much and I really want to help him.  I just don't know how.  So, then I wonder if I should keep dragging him through all this medical stuff.  Will they ever know what is wrong.  Any kind of diagnosis would be better than all  the limbo.  People are starting to ask about him more... Is something wrong?  Is he ok?  Has he seen a doctor?  The answer is I don't know.  I wish I did.  So for today, I will get on my knees again and pray.  I will pray for strength and comfort and for knowledge to know how to help him!


  1. Oh Rachie.My heart is just aching for you. I adore your children. You are such a great mom and I'm sure you will just know what to do for Zach. Maybe not today, but with some time and prayers you will be able to find peace.

  2. Zach is so sweet and precious!! What a challenge. The hardest thing in the world is to know you would do anything to help your child and not be able to. He is so lucky to have you for a mother! I believe that a mother's prayers are the strongest prayers. I know I have made it through a lot of challenging times in my life through my mom's prayers that I know would not have worked out if she had not been praying for it.